The Tempest

I’ll forever remember this song as the one that accompanied me through the worst and most debilitating period of depression that I’ve ever experienced.

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Man-hands!

My hands are HUGE.

Seriously.

According to the internet (which knows everything, let’s not fool ourselves here) I have man-hands. Ack. My hand is 7” from the bottom of the palm to the tip of my middle finger, and my wrist is 6” around. Evidently the avg wrist measurement is 5”. This will So. Not. Work.

Unfortunately I can’t change the length of my hands, but I can work on the wrist measurement.

 

And I’m still 169 after almost a week…ew…

 

On another note, I’ve rediscovered this:

 

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guess who’s broken the 170-lb barrier… heh heh.

current theme song: Deep, by Paradise Lost. (they sound like Tiamat! w00t!)

 

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Mid-exam Stress Relief

So.

Exam time.

They’re practically MURDERING me.

I’m gaining weight cuz I’m spending all my time studying/trying not to be depressed.

These two sites are ones I practically LIVE on (in conjunction with Windows Live Messenger, of course)

http://www.towerdefence.net/

Tower defence games = the BEST timekillers ever.

and

http://www.di.fm/

I live on the Vocal Trance channel. Seriously. Latest discoveries off it include Rachel Loy’s “I Can Feel It (Lovin’ Me)”, and Oceanlab’s “Satellite”. Sooo wonderful… T__T

Rachel Loy (this particular remix is rather happy hardcore…and I like it…how unusual. There ARE other more trance-ish remixes though.)

Oceanlab

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170. And not moving.

Okay, I’m DONE playing around.

Screw this.

Why the HELL can’t I break that 170lbs barrier?

Well ya know what? It’s coming off. Oh yes…it WILL come off. Even if someone has to die for it. I’m tired of this crap.

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Day 2 of soup

I think the soup might be upsetting my stomach. Or maybe I’m having too much of it. It’s strange…my stomach’s growling all the time…but I’m really full. As in, extremely full. How strange.

Also, lightheadedness sucks. I think, when my head starts to spin, it’s time to eat.

In other news, I’m SO watching Bleach again. I’d forgotten how good the anime was, not just the manga. Hopefully they can keep away from fillers for a decent while, so I can enjoy more of the sexiness Kubo-sensei brings. The anime’s reached Szayel and Nnoitra’s fights…omg…love them…

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EDIT: 8:27pm – Exercise today was a total failure, I couldn’t manage for more than 20 mins -__-

Water intoxication?

I’ve been thinking. And I’m really hungry (my meal of the day, soup, is taking FOREVER to cook, literally hours, wtf).

And, I don’t want to get an ulcer. I got one before in sixth form, when I didn’t really eat much…and it wasn’t pleasant. So I figure drinking a lot of water will help dilute the stomach acid. Logical so far? Good.

BUT.

Drinking a lot of water’s bad for you, since you pass out a lot of electrolytes and don’t take in many. I drink a LOT. Not enough that I could die, I think that’s a matter of the time frame as well, but enough that I’m concerned. Definitely more than the eight to ten glasses you’re supposed to take in. I think I’m going to dump some Lucozade or Gatorade in my water…just a little…so I can be safe.

I’m actually somewhat concerned about my health, I guess.

Mmm…fast food

So I’m back at 176….darn…

Took a friend out to get his driver’s permit and he got me food….damn this fast food…so apart from Popeyes (which I absolutely enjoyed, btw), I had half a bagel. I shudder to think how many calories were in the fast food…I was gonna exercise today too, but then….it didn’t happen. It’s hard enough exercising with one person in the room, but with more than one, I just can’t psych myself up to do it. So bye-bye elliptical machine.

I’m going to look for an exercise bike tomorrow, so I can exercise in the privacy of my own house. My poor money’s leaving me so quickly…

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Weight Loss Drama (not)

So. I tried eating somewhat moderately for a month, and exercising.

I have to say, exercise is a BITCH. It’s horrible. I need to pick up tennis again because exercise for its own sake is terrible. Jogging, crunches/situps, pushups, the works…ew.

AND I ONLY LOST 4 LBS!

Yep, 4. For the whole month. And the funny thing is, I stopped exercising for 4 days, and I regained them all. Not cool, man.

So I’ve started Plan B. I’ve been very restrictive with my food intake for almost a week now, in hope that it’ll help. And it has. I was 183 when I started Plan B (yeah, I’d gained even more weight >_<) and nowwww I’m 175. Cool shit. The only problem is, I’m starting to hate drinking water, heh. I drink so much of it, I’m surprised I don’t look like a water fountain yet.

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Necromancy

…And I can rise from hell
With a bloody kiss dragged across the glass
The closest I can get to the world outside
Your shape is a portal, your silhouette the door
My blood…the key